Zachary is coming!!!!!!!!!!!!! The baby shower was fantastic.  Taylor and Zachary were so blessed.  And even Big Brother Tripp gathered up a few new things!  We played pictionary, did a couple of crafts for Taylor, had a magnificent cake, and had lots of fellowship.  Can't ask for more than that!  Thanks to everyone who could come and all who sent things and prayed for us all.

This time is going to be different!

Friday morning found me today surprised that this week has flown by.   We have been immersed in 3rd grade math and book reports, Taekwondo, and church meetings.  It has all been fun.  There is however a question haunting me lately.  It seems everyone on TV and in my view is revamping their lives and physical appearances with great exercise and eating programs.  A wise friend once told me to "Stop waiting to like it!"  She assured me that no one likes it - they just do it.  I love you Susie.
I can run an ABA therapy program for my son for 3 years relentlessly until there are NO more programs to run.  I can do what needs to be done for his diabetes daily without fail.  I can teach my class at church with joy in my heart and look forward to it.  I can even do my family's laundry and take pride in taking care of them in the mundane. And I can honestly say I did and do these things happily.  SOOOO  why can't I  consistently exercise and take care of being in shape for myself????  It is almost like a self sabotage pattern. 
I don't like how I look ( and I am NOT looking for compliments).  I really want to be in good health and good shape.  So why will I not do for myself something that is good for me with the same dedication that I will show for others. 
Well I have had enough of looking back over the months and regretfully thinking of how I could look  and feel if I had started.............
My blog has become my accountability partner.  And I welcome her.  She doesn't smart off to me (unless I write into it that way), yet she is very clear and does exist.
With much amazement, even running has appeared attractive to me.  You must understand how crazy this feels coming from a girl who faked an asthma attack in the 6th grade to get out of running around the school yard.  It was a fantastic performance and I received much attention.  Needless to say, I never was asked to run again.  Back in the day you really didn't need a doctor's note for everything.
At this age the running would be a challenge. So I am on my way...again...
I am going to start with Zumba.  It looks so fun.  But I promise not to like it.

Spirit like a child.

The day I look up in the clouds and cannot see the faces and animals will be a sad day indeed, for that means I am loosing the childlike part of my heart.  There are many things that God values in his relationship with us, but I am sure being childlike in order to draw close to him is near the top of the list.  Especially in the beginning of our Christian journey.  He gives us that truth in scripture.  He wants us to come to him like children.
I think that pure simple part of us can also spur confidence in our creativity. Who doesn't miss that spark in our heart that was so excited when we created something and couldn't wait to show someone... rather than being afraid of the critical judgement that might come from exposing our creations. I have seen that kids with Autistic tendencies have missed the "I'm scared to show you how great I am" gene.  If I tell Brady he is great at something, he very matter of factly smiles and says " I know,right!".  In the way only a child can, he is humble and excited at the same time...not boastful or bragging.  It is pure and wonderful. I hope no one ever destroys that in him and I feel pretty certain it is safe.  So in my excited and humble way...not to brag because I know there are gobs of talented picture hangers out there!!!!  :o)  Here is my weekend project...YAY